(Mood - Downtrodden and apprehensive)
(Listening to - What's Up by 4 Non Blondes)
"Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination..."
"And I try, oh my God, do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my God, do I pray
I pray every single day
For a resolution..."
Anyway, whiny song lyrics aside, here are the following things I'm not doing:
a) I no longer have a surefire definite internship, as the parish that offered no longer need me.
(Listening to - What's Up by 4 Non Blondes)
"Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination..."
"And I try, oh my God, do I try
I try all the time, in this institution
And I pray, oh my God, do I pray
I pray every single day
For a resolution..."
Anyway, whiny song lyrics aside, here are the following things I'm not doing:
a) I no longer have a surefire definite internship, as the parish that offered no longer need me.
b) I was not accepted to cadet camp this year, and am not going to be a chaplain.
c) Because of this, I've lost the major source of income for the wedding (for now).
d) Because I need to find work, I'm doubtful I can go to Minnesota with the Youth Group from said parish who can't have me as an intern.
So, no idea of when/how I'll get ordained due to lack of internship, and therefore, no real way to get started with the wedding. Gobs of uncertainty. Again. LOVELY.
On the bright side, I am home in a few weeks, exams and papers are almost all done, it's Easter very soon, and all my colleagues are offering ideas for summer work. Also, the possibility of a position or posting in a parish for the summer is an idea, and if available, I COULD do it at home, not to mention that it MIGHT count as an internship, if I could get one.
That's a lot of ifs though. Anyway, just FYI if you we're wondering.
Personally, I'm confident in the whole "When a door closes, a window opens" thing, even if sometimes it feels as though it's a window for you to jump out of. There's nothing that takes the wind out of your sails completely quite like depending on plans that seemed definite only to have them dissipate. Guess there's something else I was supposed to do - hope I get to know what that is soon. That'd be nice.
So, how's YOUR week? More later.
So, no idea of when/how I'll get ordained due to lack of internship, and therefore, no real way to get started with the wedding. Gobs of uncertainty. Again. LOVELY.
On the bright side, I am home in a few weeks, exams and papers are almost all done, it's Easter very soon, and all my colleagues are offering ideas for summer work. Also, the possibility of a position or posting in a parish for the summer is an idea, and if available, I COULD do it at home, not to mention that it MIGHT count as an internship, if I could get one.
That's a lot of ifs though. Anyway, just FYI if you we're wondering.
Personally, I'm confident in the whole "When a door closes, a window opens" thing, even if sometimes it feels as though it's a window for you to jump out of. There's nothing that takes the wind out of your sails completely quite like depending on plans that seemed definite only to have them dissipate. Guess there's something else I was supposed to do - hope I get to know what that is soon. That'd be nice.
So, how's YOUR week? More later.
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I am trying to comment. It looks different today... maybe it will work this time.
...and thank you Catherine for that lovely comment. *L*
so insightful, I know.
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